Do I or Don't I

I cannot put into words how excited I was to see so many family members last weekend I'd never seen or haven't seen for years. I feel so fortunate to have family be close enough away to ONLY drive 8 or 9 hours, depending on who's driving, to get there. Dylan, my wonderful one year old nephew, survived his first road trip. And I barely survived my first road trip with a one year old. Being an aunt is a very important job. Being an aunt  is a dress rehearsal for having a child of your own. Well, I learned a few things about myself after spending over 72 hours straight with a small child. I noticed I really don't have much patient for a whining child. Now don't get me wrong, Dylan is a very good baby. He's happy all day. It's just when the boy gets tired, hungry or is in excruciating teething pain he begins to fuss. And when the boy fusses, he fusses. You can't blame him, he's a little baby. It's not like he can say, "Yo, mom, my teeth hurt give me some tylenol and why don't you grab me a glass of water on your way." As I found myself running through the many different reasons the kid could be crying I realized I really don't know as much about kids as I thought I did. I guess I should probably re-think the having kids of my own. I need to learn how to deal with my patience issues and selfishness too. I guess I should probably work on finding a guy that would actually want to have a kid with me first. So we won't need to worry about preparing to have kids for me anytime in the near future.