Suffer by comparison

Why do I feel like I'm sick all the dang time lately? I guess it's my body's way of telling me to rest. It's been a long 3 weeks. Work has been crazy (to say the least) . . . But that's a totally different story. I've thought I needed to post something on the blog for a while, but honestly haven't had much positive to say. And I've been told I focus on the negative a little too much. I have to agree in some ways, but I'd also like to give you a little background to this. I guess I "compare" myself to my 5 other siblings. If I look around the fam I see 4 of the 6 of us are in committed relationships, own homes or have places of their own and a few are starting a little Sanfiladialaberto-Shuggallen family in some way or another. I know they all aren't perfect and each one has their own quirks but it's hard not to take a look around and say, "I'm 28, not married, not in a relationship, live with my best friend's mom, still have no house of my own and yet still haven't finished my last 2 stupid classes to actually get my degree in something I will probably never ever use." I've realized lately and thought more and more about the fact that I probably should be seeing a professional that can help me change my outlook in this area. I've tried, really I have, some of you may not agree, but I really have tried to see the silver lining in all situations. Well, I think it takes more than just an effort to change. I think I have underlying "issues" that need to be addressed first. I guess admitting you have a problem is the first step, right? But as I called to get the balance on my Flexible Spending Account last week I realized that may not be in the cards just now. So that brings us back full circle to the, am I seriously sick again, opening line. I have already spent more that $350 in medical co-payments this year. That leaves less than $150 for the remainder of the year. Vacation Blackout lifts June 20th, so hopefully that means I can take some time off and take a break from all the craziness and keep myself healthy for a bit.